It has been a while since I posted an entry. Life just happens. You get this motivation earlier in the week to write an entry. You think “I am going to do an entry this weekend” and when the weekend comes you lost that motivation even though you know it would be good for you to write.
Many things have happened since my last entry. Mainly I was in my head. What do I mean by this? When I am inside my head, I isolate myself from civilization. I don’t talk, text, call, or hang out with my friends. I fall into a deep depression and all these negative thoughts go through my mind. How I’m not good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, or just enough. I watch as my friends move on with their lives with college degrees, careers, and a family. When I don’t have any of that. I try to get out of that whole. I post and share things on the Facebook page for the blog about being enough and it doesn’t matter if you aren’t in the same chapter in life as others. But here is the thing, even though I post those positive sayings, my mind is not currently there.
Earlier I talked about isolation. What happens to my mind when I isolate myself? Well, my mind goes a mile a minute and I am just…quiet. I think about my future, choices I have made, my friends, and what I want to do with my life. Honestly, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. One thing I have been really thinking about lately is what I want to do when I graduate. I’ll have a bachelor’s degree in organizational leadership and communications with a minor in business administration. I am not sure what I want to do with that, but I think I want to be a college professor. Which is why I want to go to grad school. But like I said. I’m just thinking about it. I still have two years to figure that out. Right now, I need to focus on how I can help myself in the present; and knowing me helps others along the way.
You may think helping yourself is being selfish. Think of it this way. How can you be there for a friend, family member, or even a coworker when you can’t even be there for yourself? In order to see clearly you need to take the plank out of your eye, so you can help your brother or sister take the spec out of their eye. Healing yourself will help you think and see clearly so you can be there for others.
Which brings me to my next topic…royal family kids! But I’m going to save that for next time. Hint: It was an amazing experience.
Life heads in the direction in what you think. college professor I think would be fun and rewarding.